December 13, 2014

control


i have been thinking a lot lately about transitioning to having my husband back in our home. it has been over a year and a half now that i have been living by myself. everything is where i put it last. there are no random socks or army boots to trip over. i have the control. i wake every morning, change and feed our son. i come home from work and make myself dinner. adjusting back to having him home is going to be a test for me. am i willing to give up most of this control? how hard will it be to go back to living as a couple again. some of those duties, i'll be happy to pass back to him: cooking is one of them. most of the time i just don't have enough time to cook myself a decent meal. and when i do, i make enough to last the rest of the week. but i have done everything for our son, change him, bath him, feed him, put him to sleep. will that be hard to let go of? how easy will it be to slide back into the backseat and just watch? i long for the night where i roll over in bed and finally see his sleeping face and have him wrap his arms around me. i just wish time would hurry a bit faster to make this transition finally become reality.

December 12, 2014

50/52


"a portrait, once a week, for the year of 2014"

week fifty.

wow. i realize i only have two more week left of my 52 (weekly) photographs left, man how a year has flown. this week we set up the finally christmas decorations, including our little three foot fake tree. it's suppose to sit in this vase, but it's definitely not my style. so i used one of my photography props, a fishing pail, and put it on a wooden crate and it's perfect! and who wouldn't pass up the opportunity to put a kid in christmas jammies and force your pup to take some photos in front of the tree. at least one of the two liked it. ha ha. can't believe the holiday season will be here in less than 2 weeks. :)