as i look back at the photos of when my niece came to visit. we had such a blast playing with "aunt whitney's puter". i can not wait until the day arrives that my neice will have more cousins to play with. this continues to be a constant struggle for my mind, each and every month. most of the time i am on the fence and can be pushed one away or another. one where i see all those fellow bloggers announcing their babies and posting all these adorable pictures of them. we are ready for a family. but then i fall back the complete opposite way in where i want to wait because what if it does happen and my husband isn't here for it? if he will miss most of the pregnancy months or even months of the child's life due to being away for military reasons? how strong would i really be?
either way i know someday it will happen, if it's meant to be. i need to someone make my mind stop wondering and just enjoy each and every day i do have with him or be able to talk to him. live in those moments now, because i realize how quickly they can be taken away from us.