October 15, 2013

the day

(wrote on 9.17.13)  the day i official found out we were going to have a baby. writing this at only five weeks in seems still so unreal yet. i'm not sure if it will ever phase me until i am holding the little one in my arms.

god works in mysterious ways and for some un-known reason he said now is the time. really god? is it really with the husband gone away for training for the next five months, missing my little belly grow each day. is it really? because he will leave as i just enter my third trimester to serve our country across the seas, and will not be back until our baby is nine months old. nine months. a lifetime will pass him by, missing so many of those first moments. not shared together.

but i believe still that this is the right time, like god said, because this little one will help me get through so much of him being gone. i know i will need the support of family and friends around me during the months leading up to the birth and many months after. i can not do it alone. i know i can't. but i have a hard time not letting go of my independent self. this will be a true test.
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it was a sunday afternoon, just before the packers game and a couple days before i could tell i had been different. cramping constantly. super constipated and only a little pink "spot" the day i was suppose to get my monthly gift. could this really be? am i really? mind are you playing games with me again? okay, what can one little test hurt? (a faint second line appears) i drop to my knees in complete disbelief. no way. absolutely no way. i was 4 weeks and 4 days.

game face time. that night was the hardest to keep a straight face and act like nothing was different than any other FaceTime conversation night with the husband. after, i ran into the Walgreens and picked up the most expensive test, the one that gave the YES or NO answer, no in between guessing. that next morning, my guesses became official. shocked. speechless. completely scared after thinking of the timing god and this little one has in store for us.

i knew then that i had to tell my husband in person, there was no way i could do it over the phone. it just wouldn't be the same. to see how his face reacts and not being able to hug and kiss in celebration. so it was that same day (monday) that i made plans to surprise my husband. $1000 for a plane ticket that weekend. you have got to be kidding?! the next day? $600? it is worth every last penny of that six hundred dollars to see my husband's reaction. booked.

no looking back. i slept like crap that monday night. finished up all i could at work early that tuesday morning, and that afternoon i was on the next flight to Ft. Sill, Oklahoma. with the help of the hosts that the husband's staying with, we made arrangements to come pick me up. shaking from the moment i landed, to the time i stepped in the door, i was nervous. i completely caught my husband off-guard at their house, not realizing why i never answered any of his calls/texts earlier that day. and you bet he was surprised. cashing in every last penny of that money well spent. i brought him into their kitchen and gave him his "baby gift". recorded it all and will definitely show you all the video sometime soon. i replay it over and over again. it never seems to get old.

that night, still both in complete and udder shock. we begin to talk, but there is one line that stood out in my head that i will never ever forget. as he was about to roll over and kiss me goodnight, i heard him say to himself "i'm going to be a dad". those six words have never been so wonderful to hear.

our dreams are finally becoming true and it has begun to sink in just a little.

34 comments:

  1. CONGRATULATIONS!!! This is so exciting:) I can't even imagine hearing my hubby say those words- that is so sweet:)

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  2. Congrats! What a sweet story.

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  3. Congratulations!!! I've been following you for awhile and I'm so happy for this news! :) hope you're feeling well!

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  4. Congratulations!!! I've been following you for awhile and I'm so happy for this news! :) hope you're feeling well!

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  5. Oh, Whit! I have tears in my eyes over here, sweet friend! God knows the timing. He's in control. He said this is when Baby M is supposed to be on his/her way. :) I admire your positive attitude! Keep your faith. You have family & friends that will support you & your growing family. I'm here, too. :)

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  6. You have me in tears!!! I am so so very happy for you! Congratulations! You're going to be wonderful parents!

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  7. So incredibly amazing!! I can NOT wait! Your going to be a wonderful mom, and Chris is going to be a very strict father to a little girl (if thats what your blessed with!) Congratulations to the both of you!

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  8. congratulations!!! what an exciting time! I think it takes awhile to get over the shock that you are pregnant, even if you were planning on it! :)

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  9. Oh my gosh....congratulations! That is just wonderful news! :)

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  10. Congratulations!! I'm so happy for you! Being a mom is the best!

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  11. You definitely have me in tears! So precious that you flew out there to tell him, you're right the reaction wouldn't have been the same any other way!! I'm so happy to see you with such a positive outlook right now :)

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  12. Congratulations to you and your hubby! That is so exciting!

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  13. I'm crying sweet tears! I am SO excited for you & Chris my dear! Such a blessing for sure! And flying there to surprise him is/was perfect! It's a day I'm sure you'll never forget!

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  14. You made me cry.... I am so excited for you and your husband. You are going to be such an amazing mama. I truly hope that your husband doesn't miss the birth, sometimes they can arrange for things like that.

    And please share the video ASAP!

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  15. Congratulations! I'm so excited to watch another blog friend in her pregnancy journey ;) You will be a fantastic mom! I wish I could be there to hold your hand. If you ever need to talk/vent email me! xx

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  16. That's awesome! Sounds like it was the perfect way to give him the good news!!!! Congrats!!!!

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  17. This is amazing!! I LOVE that you surprised him!! :)

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  18. What an amazing memory to have!!! I'm so excited for you & can't wait to read more :) I commend you for being so strong & brave about being without your husband during the end of your pregnancy & the beginning of your child's life. I might need to earmark this if I find myself in a similar situation some day! :) Congratulations again!

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  19. I have to admit, I was crying a little bit after I read this sweet post. I am so happy and excited for you! You both are going to be amazing parents and this little baby is extremely lucky for how loved he/she is already. I know it will be hard, but God will be with you and I will have both of you in my prayers that your husband makes it back safely and gets to meet your sweet baby!

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  20. AWW Congrats! I almost cried at work! This is such a sweet story! I think God works in mysterious ways and this is exactly what he wants for you. Great perspective!

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  21. Awwwh I am in tears...what a sweet, wonderful story! I completely agree that God knows the right timing and although you may not understand it for awhile...this is the right time. You are going to make wonderful parents. I'll be praying for you and your family! :)

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  22. Yes, I'm in tears. I'm so unbelievably happy for the two of you. Yes, to you the timing may be off but we have always says when it's meant to happen it will happen. I love you guys and I feel so blessed to be able to be your friend and follow you and Chris on the wonderful journey. That little one will bring so much joy and happiness, he/she will make life sweeter

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  23. CONGRATULATIONS WHITNEY! So happy for you. You will be a wonderful mother. :)

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  24. Your words literally brought tears to my eyes... Congratulations pretty mama :)

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  25. Timing is never right for a baby, but it's always right on God's calendar. Congrats!!! Y'all are going to do great!

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  26. I love this post! :) Again, I'm so happy for you.

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  27. Congratulations!!! Our baby will be flying solo with me for the first nine months of it's life so we're in the same boat as you!!

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  28. I got goosebumps reading this!! Congratulations. I so can't wait to see the video. :)

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  29. This brought tears to my eyes! I'm so beyond happy and excited for you! You guys are going to make amazing parents and Harlee is going to be a GREAT big sista ;) congratulations again! xo!!!

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  30. I'm just getting around to catching up on your posts and this one made me smile and smile and smile! You may be sleeping alone in your bed at night, but know that there are friends and family who are just a text/call/yell away who will rush to your side if and when you need us. I'm honored to be friends with such a strong, levelheaded woman.

    P.S. That video? Priceless!

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  31. Congrats!! It will be difficult to have him gone during the early stages of pregnancy and life but your little one will be so loved! Enjoy every moment!

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  32. Wow. Congrats. I am so happy for you. I'm sure the timing seems so off, but looking back at things, you'll soon know why it happened when it did. What a wonderful little miracle for you guys. :) So happy for you!

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  33. How fun of you to surprise you hubby like you did. I think often about how I would tell G when the time came and what I would do.

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