April 24, 2014

fourth week

we are going home! it's true. three weeks in the NICU and we are making our get away. as i put him into his carseat, he has never looked so tiny. i'm sure i won't be saying that in a couple months when i have to lug around a 15 pound babe and seat.

i have never been so terrified to leave. it will just be myself, him and Harlee (our dog). no monitors. no other crying babies. no nurses. all alone in our house. we packed up all of his items, and i drove the hour drive home white knuckled. we made it safely and settled in. as i go to change his first diaper. i could smell it before anything. my first massive (almost blow-out) diaper change, i laugh and tell him jokingly "do not pee on momma". the next thing i know he has wriggled off his cover and i saw a stream of clear liquid just miss my face. thanks little man, for breaking mom in on our first day.

thankfully he has been a pretty good baby so far. and i think i have the NICU to thank for that because he eats when he wants, but it's normally every 3 and a half hours. which leaves me a good amount of time to catch some sleep, or naps really.

we went for his first doctor's appointment, which i had to drive him there by myself. terrified because he's so tiny in his car seat, that he may not able to breathe properly. i pulled over twice, on my 5 minute drive across town to the hospital. we made it just fine, i'm sure the more i drive with him the more it will be easier to do. but on a positive note, he weighed in at 5 lbs exactly! you can tell he is definitely filling-in in his face. i'm trying to imagine him as a normal 7 pound baby. even the fact that this saturday he will be a month old already. it's a crazy thought and time sure is flying.

the hardest part though, trying to be happy when i wish my husband could be home with us. to remember just how tiny our son once was, as he grows.

13 comments:

  1. yeah for going home! I was so scared to leave the hospital even with my big baby so I can't imagine. you are doing a great job! he is adorable!!

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  2. You're doing a great job!!!!

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  3. So happy you only had to spend 3 weeks in the NICU!

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  4. You are doing amazing and he is absolutely precious.

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  5. He is so adorable! You are a rock star mama! So much amazing mama/son bonding time. You will cherish these next few weeks for the rest of your life. (although maybe not right away)

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  6. You will do fine. Just document whatever you can!

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  7. He's such a trooper! Glad to hear that he's doing so well.

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  8. You look great lady! It gets easier. You are doing so good!

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  9. You're doing a great job!! You're amazing for doing all of this on your own!!
    Do you have a mirror for him in your car? The one I used wrapped onto the headrest of the seat that I had the baby on and I could look through my rear-view into the baby mirror and see their face.

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  10. You are a wonderful, Mama! Keep it going! These next few weeks & months will fly by. Baby Beau will keep you on our toes. :)

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  11. Glad y'all were able to leave the hospital! He is growing so well! You are doing a wonderful job documenting him too. I'm sure your husband really appreciates that!

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  12. So happy that you are home! He is adorable!

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