April 26, 2014
i should still be pregnant
but as i go through my feed now, i realized that that should still be me. i should still be pregnant for a least another month. i try to imagine just how i would look like now with my belly. how i'd still be stuck in a hospital bed away from my house, my work and my pup. maybe it was all for the best. a month has gone by already. i don't have that belly anymore. do i miss it? i'm not sure. but i'd take it over this flabbiness that has been left. i'm thankful for how God planned it, but i can't help but feel if he waited two more months, i'd be more prepared. but then again, i doubt that'd be even possible.
the stroller would still have been purchased, the bags were still packed. nothing changed except the fact that my little man was a lot smaller than all those babies will be when they are finally born. for now, i can't wait for them to arrive so we can share in new baby experiences instead of expanding stomachs.