April 27, 2014
most of myself can not believe that this is true. there is no way that my little man is a month old already. although he spent most of this time in the NICU, he has come a long way since his birth day. leaps and bounds every single day. i know as time goes on, it will go by even quicker. he will be two years old the next time i blink, i'm afraid.
he has been such an easy baby so far. please stay that way little one. this single parenting is a little easier because of it. he barely cries, unless he is super hungry. then there's a little scream that lasts seconds. the minute i run water in the kitchen sink, he know it's dinner time and immediately calms and look up at momma. bath time is both of our favs. the smell of a freshly bathed little one has now become one of my sweetest scents. he has though, gotten good at peeing on his momma at least one every week. well done kid. well done. even blew some bubbles in your bath with your butt.
laundry has been a bi-weekly occurrence because he has yet to grow all the way into the newborn clothes. though his preemie ones are limited in options, are getting a little snug. day by day he grows before my eyes, even though i don't quite see it unless i compared to older photos. it's great to know he has made it to the 5lb mark. sleeping hasn't been too bad, i've gotten myself used to the maybe 2 hour max naps at night.
his daddy unfortunately will not have the opportunity to make it home to see him. it won't be until he comes home that he will be able to hold his son for the first time. this eats at both of us, but we know there is nothing else we can do. we don't want anyone else to feel sorry for us, we knew this could have happened. it just means that that homecoming will be one of the best moments for all of us. he does have the option to facetime with us almost every single day, and for that we are grateful for.
one month down. one less month to go. keep those months a comin'. this momma misses my little one's daddy. and so does he.