January 25, 2015

home


the days leading up to this day seem to drag on, even if i did keep myself busy. but now the time has come and gone so quickly before my eyes, i'm so thankful to have photographs and video to reminisce. the day played out just as i had imagined. i drove myself and my son down to the airport, outfits picked out, signage made, butterflies in my stomach. we embraced as he came down the escalator, rose in hand and the long awaited kiss or two. he then got to hold his son for the first time. my husband's first words to him "wow, look at you. you're so big".

i was so nervous for that day to come. did i have a reason to be? probably, it has been 562 days since he left home for army training. after those 6 or 7 months he left straight for deployment. literally two days after he came home. so i spent a total of maybe 30 days with him physically over that time. in those five hundred sum days: we found out we were expecting, i went through my entire pregnancy alone, worked full time, said "see you soon's" when he deployed and had our son (who was two months early) just two weeks after. spent a month in the NICU and wrestled endless sleepless nights for months. how i survived, i honestly do not not. i went back to work for over 20+ hours not even two weeks after he was born and continued that until my husband came home. not to mentioned my photography hobby on the side during some nights and weekends of weddings and other family sessions. i feel like i'm bragging, and i really don't mean to but this has been the hardest 562 days of my life and i deserve to have some rights to brag right?

i never wish single parenting on anyone. how a parent does it with more than one child, i am baffled. it is hard. you can't go anywhere without them by your side. you are not able to up and leave the house to run and quick get some eggs. you will have to bundle him up, put him in his carseat, lug it around to and from all the while still managing to remember what in the heck you went out for in the first place. but non-the-less, i got into a routine. a strong one where my son knew and woke up almost every day at the same time and went to bed within the same time each night. it helped, tremendously. and soon those days flew into months and before i knew it i was counting down the hours until i was reunited with my husband. my son's father.

that moment was pure joy filled with some strong hesitation. we haven't been in the same physical location for over a year and a half. i got so used to living by myself. knowing where i left things and the house as i clean was what i left it. this transition is going to be a tough on not only on us as a couple but also add a new small child to the mix. who has his own routine, filled with bottles, diaper changes, solid foods, naps and bath time. all of which i have done at a certain time during the day and in a specific way. relaying this information all to a daddy who has never been one before. never changed a dirty diaper (bless his heart) or given his son a bath. a whole new experience for all of us. and an understanding that things were going to change, but for the better. because he is now home. he get's to witness first hand what i do day in and day out. slowly getting into his own routine and bonding with his son.

seeing those two together, i understand why moms boast and brag about it. it's truly all heart eye emjoi and more. and i'll try not to spam you all on social media site platforms with it, but in all honesty, i've have 10 months to make up for! oh what i wouldn't give to see my husband's reaction if he was there for his birth. realize just how small a three pound baby was in his arms. though he does get a chance to see him start to crawl (whenever that will be), watch him play, laugh, wave "hi" and splash in his bath. i will forever treasure these first couple days of watching him learn to be a father. and a great one at that. so thankful he is finally home, and we are a complete family now.

29 comments:

  1. I am so overly joyed with happiness for you and your reunited family!!!!

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  2. I am so happy for your Whit! You have every right to brag and spam us with pictures of your two boys, so don't hold back! I honestly started crying when I was reading this. I am so glad he is home safe and that your family is now complete again!

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  3. The military life isn't for everyone. It's hard, lonely and stressful to say the least. You did an amazing job while your husband was deployed. I've lived this life style for 13 yrs now and it never gets easier. I pray for a smooth transition for everyone. If i mail, a little advice...
    After my 15 month deployment experience, I had to learn that literally over night you have someone living with you again and it can be a tough transition for both. Remember to try to stay patient whenever your husband leaves a glass at or does something that you hadn't done in the last few months becaus you were able to run the house the way you wanted to 😉. Oh whit I can not express how happy I am to see that your husband is back!!

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  4. I feel like I've commented on every single thing you've posted but my goodness I'm just so happy for you guys! I had a sneaking suspicion that this day was coming soon so when I finally saw it had happened, I teared up! As I did through this entire post (do I blame it on pregnancy hormones or the fact that my husband is gone too?) I'm so unbelievably happy that your family is finally whole again after SO long. You are an amazing woman and it's inspiring that you made it through all that on your own.

    Getting used to Mark being home after Basic and AIT was a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. Like you said, you were used to the house being clean when you came home and knowing where you last put something because no one else has touched it. I can't imagine having a little one who has to adjust to all that too. It is worth all the frustration in the end though! Just give yourself a break when you find that you're frustrated about some part of it and know that eventually it gets easier :) Not that you don't already know that haha. Good luck with everything! I'm here if you want to talk!

    P.S. I bet a certain doggy is super happy her daddy is back home again too!

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  5. Ahhh! I've cried at all your pictures, this post & your photographer's post. I'm beyond happy that you are a family of 3 (4 with Harlee girl). soak up all these first moments you are witnessing between Beau & Chris!

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  6. So happy for the 3 of you.
    Welcome Home!!!!!

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  7. Oh I am so happy for you all!!!

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  8. Whit, I'm so happy he's home! Feel free to spam our Instagram accounts with happy family pictures. And I totally cried reading this.

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  9. So, so, so happy for you!!!! You deserve to brag- you kept a human alive!

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  10. I am so very glad to hear that he is home safely and that you are getting those father and son moments you wished for.

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  11. I am so very glad to hear that he is home safely and that you are getting those father and son moments you wished for.

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  12. Yay!!!! I'm so glad he made it home safe!!!! Enjoy this time together!!!!

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  13. I am so. SO happy for you all!! I absolutely love seeing the pictures of you all together. And lady, brag on. You are a BADASS!! I don't know how you did it all but you did and you're an inspiration. Enjoy your time together!!

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  14. I am so happy for you. Your photos are priceless and girl, I can't even imagine Z being gone that long. You are a rock star and I am SO proud of you. And so blessed to "know" you ;)

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  15. Alright, you already know that I am SUPER excited for you but can I just say that I have NEVER cried so much in my life as I have looking at the photos captured of the day Chris returned. I must have looked at them two dozen times already (cause that isn't creepy Stormy...) and bawl every single time! I am just so elated for you that Chris is home happy & safe! And so proud to be your friend! You are an INCREDIBLE women Whitney! Don't ever doubt that! <3

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